wear deoderant.
I SWEAT LIKE A PIG PLAYING THIS GAME.
my brother's playing as broly. just broly. he's fucking great at this game and i am not. he's kicking my ass. i'm playing as ssj4 gogeta, vegito, videl, 18, and other characters that suck besides the first two. he's kicking my ass.
HE HAD ONE SLIVER OF HEALTH LEFT. THAT IS TO SAY IF I PUNCHED HIM HE WOULD HAVE DIED.
and then broly says after the battle:
"finished already?"
i screamed.
- things i should do before playing tenkaichi 3:
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sanonsu- December 16th, 20:30
- ah, fuck. i can't believe you've done this.
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- sanonsu
- December 16th, 11:29
mom's laptop isn't working. i sat there for like five minutes mashing the power button
but nothing happened. so i'm on my computer now.
i'm surprised i actually managed to pull myself out of bed this morning. i felt absolutely
miserable. last night, too. it's only my sinuses acting up, but still. chapped lips + stuffy
nose + runny nose at the same time + cough = not a happy camper. i don't get sick often,
so when i do i try to make it seem awful and i'll try to get out of anything with sickness being
my excuse.
hiei is bothering me so much. he destroyed my blinds just now trying to look outside because
they weren't open for him, he's stepping all over everything, and he's just being a big pain. i don't
want to pay him any attention right now. next thing you know he's going to be crying to get out
of my room because i'm not giving him any attention and I HATE THAT SHIT.
tyler said he's going to be getting on msn during seventh period, i think it was. this pleases me.
now i have someone fun to talk to. the only other people i normally talk to is cancer, which is
part of the reason why i appear offline all the time, but sometimes it doesn't work because she knows
i'm only appearing offline. that's real not good. so next time she IMs me while i'm appearing offline
i'll just not say anything. she bothers me so much. e ue
but anyway yeah. miserable feeling. i'm cold all over so i'm wearing my oldold jacket from sophomore
year (my first one) with stewie on the back. i hate stewie. but this is the warmest jacket we have so i'll
have to manage.
shit, it's already ten o'clock. fuck, man, fuck. i want to play tenkaichi 3 but i'm not too sure. no, i know i'm not
going to play it because if dad walks in it would be real not good. likewise with borla movie. can't do that because
he'll walk in and be like "DO UR WORK ON UR LAPTOP" which is NOT WORKING. :I
/DEEPLY SNIFFS
this is the worst. i mean this is really the worst. i would like to be able to breathe through my nose at night, please.
i hate sleeping with my mouth open; it's so damn ugly. my room is also cold. oh, i'll just put on SOME SOCKS.
SOCKS MAKE ME WARMWARMWARM. now i need GLOVESGLOVESGLOVES. or i can let hiei just attack my hand,
i guess.
i think i'm going to chelsea's house this weekend. yay! now i have something to do. plus i might meet this
andrew kid that thinks so much of me. it might be a bit awkward, though.
so i just looked at facebook and updated my myspace. found andrew, chelsea's friend, and wasn't so sure if i should
add him to my friends since the only picture of myself i have is SHOOPED. don't want him to think i've changed much
when i really haven't, hurr.
i can't believe hiei is sleeping peacefully on my bed rather than on my desk and everything on it. this shocks me. but
it makes me happy because FUCKING ROOM ON MY DESK.
borly.
i think i want to make that my name on the space.
also i think i want to play omgwtfotl.
yukana aihara. that's her name. i was wondering that for a while now. the chick from omgwtfotl, the child friend that falls
in love with you. i always knock her out. feels good.
uh, not sure what else to talk about. hmm. not much to talk about.
EXCEPT MY GODDAMN GUILT, OH JESUS.
where are my glasses. /puts them on
i just realized that everything i'm wearing is black save for my jeans. back to my black roots, tee hee.
i need to clean lalo's cage. it's a mess and it stinks like an asshole.
i fucking want to play tenkaichi, but it's not safe because dad might walk in. oh well, i could lie and say i was
done for the day.
- uh oh.
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- sanonsu
- December 15th, 12:28
my mom has to register me for this school for next year and she's calling them now.
i really hope they don't tell her about how much school i haven't done. oh god oh god.
but guess what i woke up to today? fucking mom. she woke me up this morning. so
i figured this was going to be real bad. but she's letting me on her laptop. hopefully
i can sneak on livejournal and devaintart and do what i normally do. i should sign in to
msn too.
met chelsea's friend andrew yesterday. he likes dragonball z. that's pretty neato.
oh boy oh boy, seven e-mails. i wonder what they're for.
all.
from mom.
this saddens me. i wish it was a comment on my videos or something but nooo. urgh.
mom is hovering right there next to me. she's not looking, though, so it's fine. she's going
to watch TV soon so it's all good. then i get to stay on this. now what else is there to do...
nothing. sigh. well, i guess i could grab my guilt goggles and attempt writing something.
oh god, my throat hurts. /shivers
mom is going to make this very difficult for me. she's popping in on occasion and being
curious like "isn't there an eluminate session today?" oh god, mom. i can't sneak doing
shit with you hovering over me.
it's too late to do anything now, anyway. i'm locked out of assignments ten days after they're
due. there's no going back to do anything.
i'm gonna grab my glasses really quick.
got 'em.
i woke up too early. well, i was supposed to wake up now anyway. oh shit, it's 10 already, nevermind.
i woke up just in time. i just need to stop going to bed so damn late. i don't know how i manage to do
that when i only get like five hours of sleep a day. i'm tired all day and then i want to stay up all night.
ALL DAMN NIGHT.
oh yeah, andrew showed me a website where i can watch every single last episode of dragonball, dragonball
z, and dragonball gt and all of the movies. HOT FUCKING DAMN. if i could download them from there, too,
this would be wonderful. wondorfal. not sure if i can or not though, but whatever. i don't need to. i just need
to watch them.
time to scour my journal for shitty fanfiction part two. i'll leave it open in a new tab and edit it whenever i'm feeling
RAUNCHY.
read over PART TWO, which is different from part two in the sense that it's about the second movie. i sort of like how
i edited it. not nearly as corny as it was before.
i was looking over some of my older fanfictions and realize that i've sort of degraded in terms of quality. my vocab is
shit and i don't describe much. but then again, i always tried too hard with my characters and everything i wrote was
saturated in their voice. always first person, always too close for comfort. i really don't care to know about everything
my characters were thinking, and i don't need a goddamn two page intro about them. what the hell was wrong with
me. :I oh well, that's over now. now i'm writing cutesy romance and it's going to HASTILY LEAD UP TO SEX SO THAT
I DON'T HAVE TO WORRY ABOUT IT TOO MUCH.
or maybe it won't; maybe i'll do the cliche thing and make it romantic and then have him be wished away when they
finally love each other wahwahwah. no, i don't think i'll do that.
the more i write this the more i think that i'd hate to see this in dragonball z so fucking bad.
just had a sudden urge to write smut. i felt it in my vagoo. teehee. although i'd really prefer taking a nappy poo. i'm
really tired.
gonna go potty to FAP LIKE A BEAST. or maybe mom will get there first. but yeah, byebye.
- conflabbit, fasha.
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- sanonsu
- December 14th, 16:28
i like playing as female characters on tenkaichi, i'm not gonna lie.
i mean, how often do you come across girls in a fighting anime that
kick ass? take fasha. fasha's pretty awesome, but she only makes
a movie appearance. zangya's all right, sort of girlish. videl is just
all around useless. she's not so crappy when you first see her, but
later she gets really useless. also, all of the girls on tenkaichi share
the same damn moveset except for fasha, and she's just really slow.
UNACCEPTABLE.
- what are these people thinking? ++ other things.
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- sanonsu
- December 14th, 11:24
for some reason most all of my friends and relatives are stupid with computers.
they're convinced that firefox, a professional browser like internet explorer, is
a virus. they tell me "when i got it, it gave me viruses!" i guess it never dawned
on them that they could possibly be going on attack sites.
i just had to get that off my chest.
i'm being crowded by cats right now. normally this wouldn't bother me so much but
for some reason right now i want to make them all wallpaper. hiei is drooling on me
and trying to get my attention by purring, staring at me, touching my face, rubbing
against my chest, and other cute cat things such as rubbing all over the keyboard. usually
it would work but not today. i'm really mad this morning for some reason.
i grabbed my guilt goggles off my desk before i came out here, which meant that i had
some intentions on writing smut. however, now the urge has died and i don't want to
anymore. it'll come back to me soon...i think. i don't care if it does or not, though.
it's just that my story is not finished, although the guilt and shame in me hopes it never
finishes. i don't know how i'd end it anyway. LOVE CONQUERS ALL, SAVE UNIVERSE!
that's fucking stupid. LOSE LOVE, GOKU WINS IN END, BE DEPRESSED! fuck that shit.
those are the two typical endings i can think of
hiei's not purring anymore, but he's breathing deeply and watching me type. if i so much
as look at him he's going to start up again. in fact, if i go to click the mouse he'll probably
start up again. i'm not going to try that now, though. i sort of don't want him to keep purring
and bothering me.
i went to sleep at around midnight last night because i knew i had to wake up early. i figured
i'd be able to sleep easy because i was a little tired and my bed is cozy, but i couldn't get
comfortable and i flipped and turned in my bed for like two hours before i finally decided to
start reading. thirty minutes later i grabbed a melatonin and took that, and then i was finally
asleep around 3 or 3:30. :I so i woke up and started "doing work" around 9:30. that's about uh
six hours of sleep. (i had to count that on my fingers...i'm so ashamed.)
oh, no, i made eye contact. he's going to come over to me now.
haven't had any broly or dragonball z related dreams lately, to my dismay. i wish i'd have a dbz/
christmas dream. that would be the coolest.
oh no, he touched me. he's never going to leave me alone now.
i want to listen to part eight of the fanfiction reading my brother and i are doing. it has charlie brown
music and it fits nicely. i'm glad i used it. so i'm going to go grab my headphones and listen to it.
my shoulder itches really bad and I SMELL LIKE PISS. i wish dad would leave so i can take a shower.
i'm really weird about taking showers when other people are here. that's why i'm so filthy all the time.
i'd use my own shower but that bathtub sucks. you have to use a pair of fucking PLIERS to turn it on.
THAT IS RIDICULOUS. actually i only dislike taking showers when dad is home. i think it's because
i don't want to block the bathroom off for him and i don't want him walking in on me. /shivers
i have a huge phobia of that. i wouldn't mind so much if it were mom or tyler at home; they use the
other bathroom. the only time mom uses her own bathroom is when she has to take a shower, and that's
usually late in the evening. i use it early in the morning. if dad goes to the unemployment office, i'll
take a shower then. if not, i'll just remain gross. honestly, i love taking showers. it's just that i don't like
taking them when people are around. especially at a friend's house. i really have no idea why.
tmi and such. but anyway.
i just had a sudden urge to do something. but the thing is, i don't know what said thing is that i want to
do. i also want to make eggs because i just saw a picture of fried eggs and now i want some. too bad i
don't actually like fried eggs unless they're on toast with pepper. and i don't know how to make fried
eggs anyway...and i'm not hungry.
speaking of eating, i was reading through my old journals from last year and i was all about trying to
lose weight. as in, i obsessed the thought. i mainly did it because i wanted to be /fa/ and fatties are
not /fa/. i don't go on 4chan anymore, let alone /fa/, so that desire sort of went down the tube when
i realized i love food too much to diet. the last diet i tried was fucking ridiculous. eat all the meat
and cheese you want BUT YOU CAN'T HAVE MILK, BREAD, PASTA, AND OTHER DELICIOUS THINGS
THAT YOU NORMALLY STUFF YOUR FACE WITH. now see, this would be all well and good if i
had low-carb snacks to snack on or at least had beef stew ready at my disposal every day. this was not
the case. the only low-carb snack we had available was pork rinds (which are nice but they get old after
a while) and pepperocinis (also nice, but they make my mouth and throat really hot really fast if i eat too
many). and i don't understand how i could eat a lot of cheese but not drink any milk? fucking stupid. and
you couldn't have very many vegetables either, and my favorite fruit had like 20 carbs. my diet was restricted
to 20 carbs. chelsea's telling me to do the low sodium diet but that's just water weight. my weight consists
entirely of FAT. hopefully mom will get me a bike for christmas (and one for her, too) so we can go out and
ride them every day. i love riding bikes. hopefully i still remember how. i don't feel so bad for learning how
to ride so late on because jamie didn't figure out how to ride them until he was 18 i think...i'm not sure, but
it took him longer than me.
i think i want some eggs now. no, wait, i lied. dad just walked in. he'd be harping on me about how the oven's
too hot and how it doesn't need to be red hot like how he does when i'm making noodles. :I i wonder what else
we have to eat.
HELL YEAH WE HAVE SAUSAGE GRAVY. woah, deja vu. but anyway, i don't give a shit, we have sausage gravy.
THAT'S A PERFECT BLEND OF MEAT AND NOT MEAT FOR BREAKFAST. yummyyy. i think i should go stir it
now. oh boy, it's hot. perfect. ♥ it would have been great with biscuits, but toast is fine too. i'm sure i'm not
disappointing anyone by eating this either. if mom wanted any, she'd eat some this morning. dad doesn't use
breakfast in his little concoctions. so yay.
NO HIEI GET AWAY FROM MY BREAKFAST. /taps
fatass cat.
but yummy yummy, sausage gravy is the greatest. i'm so happy i got some. i am excite.
dad's calling someone. wonder who? probably something in regards to his paycheck, which he's not getting until
christmas. how ridiculous. i mean, it's almost christmas and he has a family to support. where's the christmas spirit?
:c
mm, i think i want to look at /fa/ right now. i've been getting back into 4chan ever since i got banned from gaia.
shit, final deadline for all assignments in chemistry is on the 20th. that's this friday. i feel so fucking terrible that
i have done NOTHING AT ALL this entire year and i'm going to have to repeat this year AGAIN. i've just been like
a lump on a log with no motivation to do any schoolwork.
and right now i'm incredibly tired...i want to take a nap. right now i'm just rolling around and stretching and feeling all
around tired and sleepy and shitty. i want to push the laptop away and faceplant into the desk and such.
oh, fuck, cancer is staying home from school today. maybe i'll appear online so that she can talk to me and i'm not so
bored and lonely.
oops.
did i just blow it up?
AHAHAHAHAHAHA.
best line from the entire movie. i chuckled girlishly at it.
error loading deviations. fuck you, deviantart, i want to continue procrastinating.
TUMMY ACHE. I HAVE TO POTTY. /crosses legs
- GODDAMN FUCKING COMPUTER.
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- sanonsu
- December 11th, 10:34
first things first, good morning.
secondly, i was up until one in the morning again last night. this time i went to sleep at around 1:30 or 2:00,
not really sure. the only thing that stopped me was my computer. it's completely fucked. it doesn't have enough
memory to carry out the tasks i want it to. example: i was on deviantart checking my messages and then firefox
said it couldn't carry out some of the scripts due to a lack of memory. i did a disk clean up (which actually works
sometimes) and it cleared out 88 FUCKING MBS. THAT'S NOT RIGHT. and even worse is that my computer apparentl
only has about 800 mbs of space left. MEGABYTES. out of 150GBs this is NOT RIGHT. everything that i download
goes straight to my external hard drive here lately, and it's doing just fine--great, even; i've had it for a year and downloaded
so many hefty programs to it like photoshop and some other things, bogged it down with thousands of music files,
filled it up with tons of videos, and it still has about 100GBs of space left. (although I think I'm going to have to get a new
external hard drive soon; this one is getting a little bit wonky on me.) my computer? nothing on it, maybe a few documents
and definitely a fuckton of pictures in my pictures folder, but that doesn't add up to 149 GBs of space. maybe 1GB, but
that's it. plus, i deleted my custom content folder for the sims (which previously was 12GBs but since i cleared it out it's
about 1 or 2 gbs), which i figured would do wonders, BUT NO. STILL NOTHING. in fact, i'm sort of pissed at how little it
did because i used my custom content (okay not really, i never really did; i'm glad i did it because i wanted a maxis match
game and i fucking got it). you'd think that deleting 12gbs of space from your hard drive would mean that you get 12 extra
gbs of space on your harddrive. unless you're my computer. then no, it just means you're going to get a little extra mb.
UGHHH. but anyway, i don't mind the space; whenever i download something, it goes on my external hard drive. what
i do mind is the lack of memory my computer has. it killed firefox, as mentioned, and sometimes it won't run photoshop
because "the scratch disk is full". I DON'T EVEN KNOW WHAT THAT MEANS.
/googles/
oh, that's interesting. scratch disk starts yanking memory from other parts of the computer when your memory is completely
drained. you can change where it gets it from. that's neato. i think i'll do that when i get back on photoshop so this doesn't
happen as often. speaking of that, i think i want to defrag my computer. i haven't done that in a while. i'm going to start
doing that once a week. i should set up a reminder so that i don't forget to do it. /goes to start it now
this could take a while. i'm not only defragging my c drive but also my e: drive, which is my external harddrive. i seriously
doubt it's going to be done by the time i get finished with school. i'll just hang out on mom's computer until it's all done. i'll
tell her that i'm defragging my computer in an attempt to salvage some memory, which will probably (hopefully) spark a
conversation about what happened with my memory delimma yesterday.
hmm...my poor computer got my to thinking. which would i rather have: more memory and a graphics card or a psp with
dbz shin budokai: another road? ugh...the memory and the graphics card are probably cheaper than the psp and the game,
and they would really help my computer and make playing the sims more enjoyable. they would also keep my computer
running fluidly. (and spyware removal. i need that too.) so let's see...i'm going to go on google and look for some memory
sticks for my computer and a nice graphics card.
so 1gb of extra memory for my computer would be about $35 from this website. free shipping, too. and i found a graphics
card from nvidia on amazon for about $75. so that's only about $110. hot dog. wonder how much spyware removal would
be...the one i want doesn't say. guess i have to download the trial first. that's not too bad; maybe i can get some use out of it before
i decide to buy it.
siiiiigh. idk, i just don't know anymore. all i know is that my computer is a piece of shit because i don't know how to computer.
now i'm running out of things to talk about and i'm not sure what else to do. i could write, sure, but i'm stuck with two plots:
cutesy christmas or my smut. i blame original characters for this. they always fuck me over. e ue but oh well. too attached.
let's see, what else do i want. oh, i should check how much a psp is. on amazon it's about $180, and then the games are probably
expensive, too. $40. eh. not bad. seeing that i want three games (phantasy star portable, psp2, and shin budokai another road),
that's about $120. shit, why is everything i want so expensive.
oh god, mom wants me to clean the kitchen. IT'S RIDICULOUS. I DON'T UNDERSTAND HOW THE ENTIRE KITCHEN BECAME
DIRTY IN UNDER A DAY. so mom tells me "i emptied the dish washer for you, go clean the rest of the kitchen."
THE DISHWASHER HAD LIKE TWO DISHES IN IT.
even if it didn't, emptying the dishwasher is easy shit. everything i need to put up is in the cabinet right above the dishwasher or to
the left of it, and then there's some all the way to the right, but i save those for when i'm finishing everything up so i don't have to
keep making stupid trips. i don't really mind emptying the dishwasher, it's everything else that bothers me.
ugh.
now hiei is coming to bother me because i'm out on the table. sigh. it's like coming over for an unexpected visit, but he really loves
the company. he sits there and watches me and cleans himself. and then he comes over and harasses me. and if i don't look at him
when he looks at me he starts raping the computer. then he comes over and crashes into me and rubs his butt on my face. if all else
fails he whips out the big guns, which would be sitting next to me, staring at me, then touching my face. that shit is just to damn cute.
i can't resist when he does that.
and he did it just now.
okay, snuggle time is over. but apparently it's starting up again.
i'm so tired. i want to go back to sleep but when i got up it was 9:30 so i couldn't sleep for any longer.
i really want some noodles.
WOW, A YARD SALE! ALL THIS STUFF REALLY NEEDS IS A LITTLE. ORANGE. GLOW. /thrust thrust thrust
hiei is hugging my arm and impairing my typing. he stopped it though.
all righty. so i know what i want for christmas. not sure about small stuff, though. uhh...mom can figure that out. she always does.
sometimes i get things i never even knew i wanted until i saw them. she's a smarty.
no dreams last night that i can recall.
oh, i have to tell mommy to fix my lava lamp because i don't know how to. she said she would yesterday BUT SHE DIDN'T.
- further languish.
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- sanonsu
- December 10th, 10:06
my big fat cat is being friendlier than usual and getting in my way. i want to
pay him some attention, really, but if i do he'll start walking on the laptop and
probably crack it. he's a really fat cat. e ue so i'm just ignoring him for now.
i'm also attempting to scan a picture of kawaii broly from last night that i drew
out of boredom. it actually started out as an attempt to make normal broly but
evolved into a new way to draw eyes.
i cannot draw in akira toriyama's style. it's too hard.
lol, i was trying to scan something just now while i was typing this and it wasn't
working and i'm like "what the fuck is wrong?" so i go to scan again. still nothing.
that's when i realized the scanner wasn't plugged into my computer.
also, i ate the last bit of pepperocinis yesterday. that means no quick bursts of energy.
i have to wing it myself. i deserve this. this is what happens when you stay up until
one in the morning then read stuff for two hours, which makes going to bed two hours
earlier a completely useless notion.
broly finished scanning, and he scanned in one piece! hooray. now i can throw him up
in my scraps.
i was up all night just thinking and then i got into my dragonball z thinking mode. i kept
wanting to make girl broly, but i didn't know what i'd name her. then i looked at my old
neuro/neuko fanfiction and i'm like "broko?" and then i thought "OH MY GOD THAT WORKS
BECAUSE BROCCOLI." it's just that buroko is cuter. thank you, broccoli, for being a
versatile vegetable. then i started thinking up another saiyin (totally not broly's "daughter" from
a dream i had a while ago) and couldn't think of a name for her. so i went to my old one,
celeria, but then i though maybe i could get rid of the "er", so i got celia. i like that one a lot.
A LOT. actually i tried seria at first, but that's spanish for serious, so i'm like "celia is cute."
it would be pronounced "cehleea", not "sealia" like the actual name. didn't realize that celia was
actually a real name, tee hee. x3~
so here are some fun things i like to do before i sleep. i like to talk out the daydreams i'm having.
that is to say, everytime a girl talks in my day dream, i also speak. i make sure to do this when no
one is around so i'm not so weird. but it's still weird that i talk out dramas to myself.
mm...i think i want grits.
- how bizarre.
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- sanonsu
- December 10th, 9:40
had a dragonball z dream sans broly last night. it had vegeta and goku in it, though, so that's always
good. but it was weird. they were on top of this mountain and talking and such. i was with them, and
so was mom. i was laying on a couch with her laptop on my stomach and looking at stuff on the internet
while mom was just sitting in her chair. it was positioned behind me so that she could see everything that
i was doing. this was fine; i didn't mind it. then i started watching videos. then they turned into porn.
then everything in my tabs turned into porn and mom was right behind me and she's like "uh-uh. you're
kidding me." and i'm like "I DON'T KNOW WHAT'S GOING ON." then majin buu came (i think it was him)
in his super buu form, but he'd absorbed everyone. his shirt was just off, like in the last couple of episodes
where he absorbed vegito. he was going to DESTROY THE MOUNTAIN. and GOKU AND VEGETA STOPPED
HIM. then when they were done, vegeta says, "kakarot, did you say there was questionable content on that
laptop?" and goku's like 'yep." and vegeta smirks and sort of gets it. then i'm like "oh, i deleted it. i can
get it back for you if you want, though." mom was gone at this point. he didn't answer me though. then
i forgot what else happened, but i know chelsea was there, too, and i know that we had three radios and we had
a delimma over which one we should listen to. and i also tried to climb through a window but the person helping
me escape from the place i was in wouldn't open it wide enough.
i don't know.
i'm so tired. i want to go back to sleep. i got more sleep than i did last night (about an hour more), but when dad woke
me up i stayed in bed for another thirty minutes. this doesn't really happen. idk what's wrong. (save for the fact that
i'm not getting enough sleep.)
- CAN'T SAY I DIDN'T SEE THIS COMING. + christmas!
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- sanonsu
- December 9th, 11:26
two hours later, i'm incredibly tired.
FUCKING
FUCKFUCKFUCKITYFUCK.
so i grabbed some pepperocinis again and i'm all better. just needed two for the
little bit of heat and i'm awake now. i have five more, though. gonna eat them.
i want to write about bitches that fuck.
but i can't lead up to it.
THE WORST.
so instead i'm working on this picture of broly at someone's house (maybe goku's or vegeta's) standing
under misletoe (unbenkownst to him) and then vegeta comes up and sits down next to him like "damn,
bro, this shit sucks, y/n?"
and broly's just all like "please forgive me."
and then i have goten in trunks outside in the background throwing snowballs at each other. and there's a
christmas tree and chichi's standing next to it. i want to squeeze goku in somewhere, but he's off in the
distance informing broly and vegeta of their predicament. bulma's going somewhere, and i want to throw
paragus in, too, but he's just too goddamn manly.
he is so fucking manly that i can't draw him.
but i can try. i just don't know where to fit him. i think i might just make him talk to someone. not sure who;
maybe bulma. yeah. but idk where to put them. oh, they can go in front of chichi. yeah. that's a good spot.
next to the tree and such. who else can i haveeeee...i think that's pretty good. don't want to go overboard. i'm
already overexerting myself with a background and ACTUAL OBJECTS AND DETAIL. can't overstrain myself
with too many people. actually, i think i should draw more people since they're all i'm good at and i can cover up
my mistakes easier.
lol i was about to flip up the laptop and try clicking ctrl + s to save the picture i was just drawing. by hand. with a pencil
on paper. IT'S AUTOMATICALLY SAVED.
and sometimes i think to hit control z to undo things. i guess my mind has worked like that so much it reflexively tries
to do that sort of thing when i get into art mode. that's pretty good though; now i instinctively save my work so that i
don't lose it like i have MILLIONS OF TIMES BEFORE.
/CLAPS FRANTICALLY
OH! OH! OH! I KNOW! I'LL WRITE A CHRISTMAS DRAGONBALL Z FANFICTION. ♥ i also want to collaborate with
my brother and write a broly grinch or broly night before christmas story. he's poetic; he can help me out. he's better
at this sort of thing, anyway. i'll ask him about it when his friend goes home today.
but until then i'll just write a normal one with my own plot device and everything. woop woop.
- uh, it's a little late here, pop.
-
- sanonsu
- December 9th, 8:58
dad woke me up like an hour later than usual.
actually, i have no complaints. hell, i went to bed at fucking three in the damn
morning. i was up all night being festive. took me long enough. i'm usually in
the holiday spirit around thanksgiving, which is when we put up our tree. guess
i wasn't feeling it this year until just yesterday. oh well.
but yeah, i actually expected to sleep until like ten in the morning so i could get
seven whole hours of sleep, but i'm feeling awake now so i think i'll just take a
nap later if i feel inclined.
ugh...chafing. i hate the hell out of this; it's so damn uncomfortable.
anyway, i think i'm going to attempt drawing another dragonball z christmas picture
with borla as the main focus. hopefully dad won't notice. i mean, he only checks on
occasion.
i love when i'm back into drawing.
i also love WHEN MY FUCKING SCANNER WORKS.
/christmas lists a new scanner
- done for today.
-
- sanonsu
- December 8th, 13:02
no more school for today, it's one o'clock, woo hoo.
i should have cleaned the kitchen while dad was gone getting the car fixed
but nooooo, i just had to watch angry video game nerd instead. now mom's
going to come home like "Y U NOT CLEAN KITCHEN LIKE ASK?" and i'm
going to feel guilty and such.
- guilt goggles are go. + dream.
-
- sanonsu
- December 8th, 9:23
i'm wearing them right now, which usually means that i have intentions on writing some smut.
and i really and truly do. this would be a perfect opportunity. however, i'm stuck. as usual.
i can never lead up to the actual sex without it being a cookie cutter of the last time.
shit, why am i talking about this with you?
anyway, i slept a little later than 8 o'clock. an hour later, actually. in fact, i had full intentions
on sleeping until ten but i didn't want dad to yell at me. (although he probably wouldn't; he'd
probably forget by about 9:30, or just give up.)
my cat is touching my face trying to get me to look at him but man, fuck that shit.
i had a dream about my old friend elizabeth last night. and also tyler. we were in the mobile
home park, but it was a house that we lived in. it was broken down, though. anyway, i went to
elizabeth's house and she had the sims 3. she said she was going to make sims of me and amanda,
her BFF FOR LYF DESU ^^ that makes me insanely jealous. so she did. i walked over to her bed
and observed for a while and looked on the floor and spotted a picture of broly. i giggled and
said "i like this picture that's looking up at me." she says "i know right." elizabeth, for the record,
hates dragonball z. everythin elizabeth did in this dream is more or less something chelsea would
do up until we got to "my" house. we went to a tennis match and played for a while (i don't play
tennis, btw) and amanda came sliding down a concrete slope on her ass. i'm like "didn't that hurt?"
and she's like "no." but i could care less anyway.
then uh, oh yeah. tyler, rob, and i were all moseying around the house and we went under it and
found a secret passage. that's about all, though.
oh, and broly was in this dream, too. while i was at "elizabeth's" house, we watched like thirty different
variations of a dragonball z triple baka video. broly was in all of them. therefore yes, broly was in this
dream as well as others.
yeah, that's it.
...i hate leading up to sex. i know how to do it, i just don't like writing about it. the male interest
(everyone fucking knows who, what the fuck am i talking about.) is not capable of feeling anything
but rage, tbqh, and making him not fucking rape the hell out of the girl is hard for me.
it's hard.
....teehee, hard.
:I
- AWESOME~*~*~*
-
- sanonsu
- December 7th, 9:36
dad's going down to the unemployment office for uh, whatever reason. well, i mean he is unemployed but idk what they do
there.
he says he'll probably be there all day.
OPPORTUNITY STRIKES!
hopefully tyler will wake up before dad gets home. he should be up soon; it's about 9:30 right now and tyler doesn't
really sleep much later than 10.
- problem solved.
-
- sanonsu
- December 7th, 8:10
generous servings of pepperocinis and glasses of milk do wonders
for my soul.
and my sleepiness.
- oh, no.
-
- sanonsu
- December 7th, 7:49
i'm extremely tired and want to go back to sleep, but i can't. dad wakes up in twenty minutes, and sleeping for twenty minutes is not so great
for me.
this is what happens when you sleep for about--
seven hours?
wait, that's how long people are usually required to sleep.
...
i think it's because i'm unhealthy that i need more than seven hours of sleep. ; u;
anyway, the urge to grab my glasses just shot through the roof a few minutes ago, so i think that means i want to write something. this is good.
now i have something to pass the time.
although i don't know what i want to write about.
- back to "school."
-
- sanonsu
- December 7th, 7:13
my brother stayed home today, so hooray for that. now i'm not by myself with dad and have stuff to do
for whenever he wakes up. my brother, i mean. we might keep reading that shitty fanfiction because word
on the street is that the seventh chapter is up and it's a good one. or as good as that piece of shit can
get. i read over it and giggled. not as funny as some of the other chapters, but i have to say i'm a huge fan
of the "broly hit vegeta in his stupid vegeta face" line. there's just no excuse for that. none.
although i'm starting to think this is a troll. they have the same layout as the website that hosts the my immortal
harry potter fanfiction, and the song my immortal is in the playlist...if this is a troll, i have never felt tdo betrayd
in my lyf, but if it's not, it's a good source of laughs.
but i don't have anything to do until my brother wakes up, and even then i have to wait until noon. (noon today
because i started a little earlier, although i'll probably just do twenty minutes per class instead of an hour or
whatever.) that said, there's no guaruntees that he's going to want to hang out with me. idk why not though; there's
no one else to talk to. :I and plus we sort of agreed that he'd stay home tomorrow so we could do stuff, specifically
read the fanfiction. we're irresponsible children that do not have their priorities straight. there's no need to tell
us twice. we know.
but anyway yeah.
no weird dreams last night. although i did wake up particularly early and then napped again for a little bit and did have
a really short dream as a response. i dreamed that i went out into the living room (which now that i think about it did not
look like our living room) and into the kitchen and saw a day old burger and ate it. then i went into my dad's room (now
i remember; this was the same layout as our old house) for some reason and came back out to talk to mom. we chatted for
a bit, then mom said "nicole, i'm really worried about you." and i said "i know." because she always says that shit. then
she's like "you're acting so weird this morning." and i was about to say something smart like "how the hell am i acting weird?"
because i really and truly wasn't. but i did ask her how i was being weird, but nicely, and she said "well, there was a bagel
on the counter and you ate a day old burger." and i'm like "i would have rather had the burger anyway."
then i woke up and got scared of a creepypasta that my brother reminded me of yesterday and retreated into the living room
to hang out with mom for a little bit.
then tyler woke up and he stayed home from school.
then i had nobody.
i think i'll just read over that fanfiction and listen to tyler and i read it again. that's always a fun way to kill time. my dad shouldn't
wake up for another hour or maybe a bit less. he usually wakes up around eight and gets me up, and even then he's popping in and
out of the house to smoke a cigarette and read.
i don't understand why he stays outside all the time. i mean, yeah, he's gotta smoke out there; he's not allowed to smoke inside. but
he does everything outside. like he reads his books outside. it's really fucking cold out. he should stay inside.
but that's just my view of the matter. idk, it seems like common sense to me.
uhoh, raining. is that a power outage i sense? oh, maybe not, the rain just died down a bit because women do not their showers.
- oh, there's the broly dream. + FUCK
-
- sanonsu
- December 5th, 15:25
i took a nap and i had another dream. i was in a sort of dating sim-like game
(sans the dating) for dragonball z. minimal fighting. i hardly remember the
point of it, but i do know i liked it.
it started off as a series of games we had to play. one of them was a memory
game (that is, you had to remember stuff from dragonball and dragonball z and
answer questions) and some other stuff i don't remember. there was also one
where you had to get someone to shoot some arrows into a ball and you'd jump
on the arrows and climb into the ball, but at the expense of some people first.
(not important people, but still.) so first i was on the ball thing, and devilman (from
dragonball) was with me. goku and vegeta were, too, i think. but anyway, i said
i'd get into the ball so long as devilman shot some arrows high enough. he was
hesitant, but he did it anyway and i kicked in the face of a sim girl and crawled on
in. or maybe i couldn't, i forgot. then we moved on. it was all well and good until
a demon army came, run by broly (whose name was spell baorly[!?]). it was obviously
him because i made notice of his oddly-spelled name and said "oh, shit, broly."
and it looked like him. so then the games we had to play came at a price. someone
would die if we failed. and i decided to do the memory one because i'm fucking stupid.
however, i did a soft reset hoping no one would get mad and no one did so that was
good. in fact, they were happy and we switched games. OH YEAH, I REMEMBER THE
REST. one was a game where your head inflated and you had to bash it against someone
elses, then you had to try unlocking your hands from someone elses, and i forgot the
last one, but i remember i was like "fuck that shit, i wanna kill bitches." so i fucking did.
i started killing off broly's demon henchman one by one. felt good. then a girl came out
of nowhere and started seducing one of them and he's like "my lover~" and she's like "i'm
glad you remember me~" and she crawled on him. not like a sexual crawl, she just started
crawling on him. then there was another girl, also bad, against broly that i had to kill because
as it turns out broly was actually fucking good. so i'm like "don't worry, broly, we got this." and
we did. bitch melted into water.
then broly shattered into a thousand pieces like a porcelaine doll.
i'm like
FUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUU
i was very angry.
sometime before that i saw elizabeth in a cafe, but i wasn't wearing a shirt. so i put one on and went
over to see her. but when i got my shirt on she was gone. i asked the waiter where everyone went but
i forgot what he said. before that we were at big lots looking for furniture and there was trouble so i
ripped off my shirt (i had a camisole underneath, take a chill pill) and ran to save the day. after the
cafe incident i went to capsule corp and saw vegeta doing dishes. i'm like "vegeta, wow, this is weird."
and he giggled.
vegeta
GIGGLED.
i offered to them for him and he
SMILED AND SAID THANK YOU.
so i did them. i saw a nifty contraption that i started playing with and i'm like "what is this thing?" and krillin's
like "i don't know, but we all like it." so i'm like "fuck yeah, weird contraption." and i put a bowl on it. that's what
it was for: bowls. then the broly stuff happened and then mom woke me up saying "NICOLE DON'T SLEEP ALL
DAY."
I MIGHT AS WELL HAVE; I HAVE NOTHING ELSE TO DO. TYLER'S STUPID FUCKING FRIENDS ARE SPENDING
THE NIGHT.
WHAT THE HELL DO THEY DO?
they're not getting tenkaichi; tyler can choke on a dick if he thinks he's getting tenkaichi. that's my fucking game and
the only source of entertainment i have when there's no one to talk to.
- Writer's Block: Internet: Back in Time
-
- sanonsu
- December 5th, 8:29
How have the ways you used the Internet changed over the years? How did you use it ten or fifteen years ago compared to how you use it now?
i don't think i had the internet ten years ago, loool~ but when i did get it i don't think much has changed;
i always used it for social purposes like making new friends and watching new animu. i do those both on
a much much much much more subtle level now. other than that, not much has changed.
except i was a cyber sexing fiend when i was ten years old. i knew too much for my age.
- dream.
-
- sanonsu
- December 5th, 8:13
but i forgot like everything that happened. all i remember is being at this place
that my chorus from sixth grade went to and i was with a big group of kids, like a
field trip sort of thing, but it was in high school. marie was there. we were talking
and marie said that she was going to do something and i'm like "no, don't do that."
and she's like "what if someone found out i did that?" and i said "i'd say 'MARIE
CASEY DID IT.'" and we giggled. then we went inside. it turned into a resident
evil 3 minigame.
oh god, now i remember.
prior, i was playing resident evil 3, and i was jill. i was running from nemesis. nemesis
doesn't give up.
/song title
but like yeah, running. i don't think i lost him until i got into a museum-like place, which
was crawling with monsters and such. this was where we played mini games. i was going
to beat my last record but i saw someone in a jewelry store stealing shit. so i'm crawling
around hoping they won't see me and they don't. then i pull out my gun and start shooting
at them, but it doesn't do anything; it was like an airsoft gun. but they had a real one. i'm
like "WAIT A MINUTE, STOP SHOOTING, MY GUN IS MESSED UP." but they didn't stop
and i'm like "LOOK I'LL SHOW YOU." like this is a game or something.
i remember broly was in this, but i don't recall what he was there for.
the rest i'm unsure of.
- mother, i hate you greatly. ++ roleplay.
-
- sanonsu
- December 4th, 8:57
recently my dad was laid off from work (again....). when this happened is unknown to me, but i was
unsure of it for a while. wednesday gave me some idea because he didn't go get his check. today
i know for sure because he's not at work. the only day of refuge i get from this man has been violently
ripped from me and murdered viciously. i don't know when i'll ever have fridays free again. hell, what'd
be even better is that dad gets his job back and works on the weekdays. that would just be absolutely
perfect. i've been waking up early here recently so i could wake myself up for school. i woke up on my
own at 8 in the morning twice in a row, i'm sure i could maintain that little score.
but anyway, yeah, dad's home and he's making me "do my schoolwork." which i'm not doing. instead, i'm
on here and deviantart doing fun stuff. now here's the problem: mom wrote on the board to dad that i had to
do my schoolwork out in the kitchen. normally, this would ruin any chance i have at having fun, but dad is so
technologically retarded that he can't tell the difference between mom's laptop and my own. whether or not
he cares what laptop i'm using is beyond me, but either way, i'm using the computer that has full internet access
so that's good enough for me. further problem, however: dad is watching tv in the other room and playing
pacman. i hate the hell out of that shit. that's entirely why i never did any school work out here. mom and dad
talked about it and he said he wouldn't.
well he is. it's annoying.
i knew he wouldn't follow through with that; it's too hard for him to do something beneficial for someone else
at his own expense. ...i shouldn't say that about him. he's a veteran. i'm so heartless. e ne;;
but i'm not sure of what to do for five hours now. can't listen to music, it's freezing out here...sort of reminds me
of iss back at summerville, heh. i'd always sneak on the computer and be like "woo, sneaking." i'd always go
on gaia while everyone around me was on the space or something like that. i never had much to do there, although
that was sort of the point. oh, those were the days.
no they weren't, hurr durr.
now i want to write a fanfiction, like a lot. that's the only thing i can really do that would make it seem like i'm doing
my schoolwork when i'm really not. and pixel art, too, if i can tilt the screen away enough. i just need to think of an
idea. i'll probably use the same general plot as the roleplay tyler and i are in (that i made) and just tweak it to suit my
needs.
oh, man, i had a dream last night, but i forgot what it was...so much for this dream diary, huh? e ue
tyler's such a cocktease. he keeps asking me, "okay, what are we gonna do next?" and i'm like "well, we can have
(x) happen, and then (character y) and (character z) can fight and solve the problem." usually it has something to do
with zanira, my character, who is the most useless and weakest character there and i hate it. i made the fucking
roleplay, i should be right up there with broly! ; u; hopefully it won't be such a bad idea to implement my artificial super
saiyin transformation, which would be the only way for zanira to even achieve super saiyin form, but it's sort of stupid
and mary-sueish, so i think i'l hold off on that. but anyway, cocktease brother. usually my ideas have something to do
with zanira and i tell him my idea and he says, "oh, i was thinking zanira and broly could do that and then there'd be a
chance for romance, hurr hurr /eyebrowwiggle" i'm like "TYLER." and then i start to cry because then he doesn't do it.
that's okay, though, because it'd feel awkward. e ue he is my brother after all.
let's see, what else can i ramble about...oh, wow, it's been fifteen minutes already. on a roll motherfucker.
i think that's about all i can think about. i think i'll just read through my roleplay a little more now.
no, wait a minute. i want to talk about the roleplay a little more.
so it started out as just me and chelsea with our dumbdumb selves wanting to RP dragonball z. we would double up
so that the characters were spread out enough. minimal fighting, more social interactions, just the way i like it. then
tyler joins and it changes a little bit. at that moment we (jinja and zanira, i mean) were fighting nappa and vegeta, then
tyler's character (saskuwa) beats vegeta up for us. tyler actually likes the roleplay and tells his friends about it. two of
them. so now it's chelsea, me, tyler, and his two friends simon and mitch. everyone that joined is a fucking gary-stu,
i swear to god. tyler tries not to be but this is just ridiculous. his power level matches broly's and he's great at hand-to-hand
but he can't fly, so that's okay. simon's character knows fucking everyone and was chummy with vegeta back in the day.
MITCH'S CHARACTER IS FROM 200 YEARS IN THE FUTURE.
:I
see, i think my character is nicely balanced. maybe a bit suish, but i'm not so sure. she hits on every man that she crosses,
especially saiyin men. she's not so great at hand-to-hand combat, but energy blasts are her forte. i try to make her as average
as possible, and i think it works. but y'know, maybe not. i mean, she was born on the day of planet vegeta's destruction, which
would pretty much be impossible unless it was off the planet. cooler would have--well, maybe not. he said that goku would be
vegeta's problem, not his, so he let him go. maybe he'd act similarly with other space pods, idk.
but yeah.
i just want zanira and broly to be all chummy, that's all, hurf.
right now, since there's no reason to go to namek, we brought the ginyu force to earth and zanira got her ass kicked. i think the
most concern she was ever showed in the rp was then. e ue i made her hobble over to broly and tell him that they had to go to
goku's house and broly's like. "YOU TOO?" and i'm like "yeah." and he's like "unacceptable. :<" so then he flew them to goku's
house. would have been nice if he carried them, but no, he grabbed them by their arms. i suppose that's brolesque but shit.
shit.
now i'm goku and i have to save the fucking world again. zanira and saskuwa are fucking out of this because they're just laying
in the grass in front of goku's house, which sucks. i thoroughly enjoy fighting as zanira so long as i'm not fighting myself, which
is what has been happening here recently since i had to play zarbon who raided her house.
FUCK.
the reason i don't like fighting as anyone but zanira is because i'm worried i'll screw them up, especially goku. there's just no
excuse. absolutely none. he's the main character. mannn.
i'm making zanira stronger, that's fucking it. tyler can choke on a dick. everyone else is a gary stu, so a mary sue would be a
perfect counterpart. no one's gonna judge me anyway, except for tyler and simon, but i don't give a shit.
urrgh, i'm tired...almost time to "switch classes". wonder what i'll write about today...i think i'll do that now. tata.
